Poker Faces & Empty Screens

paper thin.

Sunday 5th Dec 2010

Hi~OMG I'm sorry I've been MIA~

being busy with my father and my sister is back home~

Have watched Skyline, Rapunzel, and Narnia 3D last week. have a movie marathon 2 movies on 1 night. i think its a little too much to catch up after that. too many movies at once. anyhow~ do ring me for another round of Rapunzel and Narnia please, i was late about 20minutes on the start for both movie. uhh how did it happen? don't mention it.

recently i often feel like this picture. EXACTLY. 

how should i put these feelings in words?

i don't know...

i slept with a smile on yesterday night.. waking up realizing that i dreamed of you. i pull you, you walked off. that made me doubt everything again. 

that is also why i dont have confidence to begin new with him...

6th Dec 2010
woke up at 11am.. empty screen.. fall back asleep and woke up at 2pm, empty screen. every half an hour, empty screen. 4.29pm something pop out. 7pm.. empty screen. every 20 minute..empty screen. 8pm..empty screen. 


Menn came and fetch me around 8:30pm, got in the car and found out she's on the phone with JWei.. drove over to his house, waited for him to bathe ~ plan changed from D'Rich,SS2 to Snowflake, Sunway Giza. Menn suggest that we go to Desa Park City~ luckily we got a seat in Snowflake, or not I can't really work with eating in her car =/ .. 
JWei drove to DPC!! yeahh.. scare the hell out of me, when he suddenly break so hard for fun. == the whole driving-time ever since I step into her car reminds me of you. who speeds?..right? especially when JWei tried to speed on the high way...


10pm..lost patient. I sent a text message. 10:10pm..empty screen. purposely wrote something on my FB wall..yet, empty screen. 10:38pm..empty screen. I'm practically losing my mind there. shut my volume & vibration down. so wanted to shut the whole damn phone. or maybe just throw it into the pond. 11pm.. empty screen, reached home. headache.


here I am now. still living half deadly. 
When I woke up this morning, I try to recall what have we talk about yesterday. how things have change. how...deep I'm in trouble now. sigh. 


I don't know should I invite you into my world. I'm afraid I'll hurt you again. I'm scare of my decision would be wrong again. I don't have any confidence in us now. I have no idea what I want. but... today, you left me like this, and I'm barely breathing every sec. All the down and... emotion. ALL MESSED UP! I don't dare to want you because I'm use to pushing people away. A total loser in confidence. None have succeed to pull me back, gave me reasons and stay by my side, and help me thru all my difficulties. none.. I can't ask this from you..can I? 


I pushed you away. but then I can't live without you. 
what. on. earth. is. this?!!


MiN ; LexCee


ps : fair enough to call this heart broken?

Skipped All

a 2000 words post fitted into this picture. 

digest it. 

xoxo

MiN ; Lexcee

ps : or you guys want the original post? LOL.

Driving In A Maserati

变成透明的颜色

Tuesday 15 November 2010

hey, human.. I'm panda.     ==''

slept around 4am, woke up at 9:30am.. why so smart? because gotta go to visit my dentist again :( .. I screwed my braces again, KFC is really something == ...

Marcus! & McD .. hahaha

kyota~! xD

my morning-not-enough-sleep look .. haha!

oohya. mii not liking my hair now :( it's long and uneven.. i mean. not in shape? LOL. haha. hard to manage, leave down look messy, tie up very mafan . . . every time when come to this length then bu shuang already. but i wanna leave it looooooong~ JEEZ. ==

Christmas deco? so fast? =(

after brunch, while waiting for Mom's lunch time to fetch us home, we played pool! P.O.O.L! =D hrmm.. Marc's skills is not bad, I'm not really good in curving the ball, or shall say.. angling the ball. zzz. hmph. must catch up with him jor. xP


but came to realize, this is the first time I play pool with him O_O .. bowling got before.. but.. Pool... I think this is the 1st time lehh >< I won two rounds lehh. xD


seriously didn't plan to watch movie, partly cause of the timing, and I'm really tired. sleeping at 4am+ waking at 9:30am.. really a no-no for me.. 
reached home, bathe, straight sleep. till 6:30pm, was waked by Mom because it's dinner time already. I missed some calls and some text messages, sorry >< .. my phone wass NOT in silent, but.. I think I slept deadly. =X

so lied on my bed returned some calls, and text messages..
found out that 
FireFly have an interview posts for air steward/stewardess this weekend 20th Nov, at Grand Dorsett Hotel [Sheraton Hotel], Subang Jaya. 
Registration time is from 8:30am - 12pm.  
for those who are going for the interview... 
I wish you ALL THE BEST in it! =) hwaiting~!! <3


so... Mom and Dad went and pick Cousin Vonne's parents, then they headed up to Genting! err.. felt like a.. relative-going-out-have-fun-thingy. == haha! it is because.. Dad has a room booked in Resort Hotel.


at the beginning it was suppose to be me and my parents, because.. you know? i just lurve~ Genting's temperature. haha. err.. then Aunt Cind said she wants to join, okay loh, car still got place wert, hotel room has two beds.. then don't know how, don't know why, suddenly Vonne's parents joined too... :( Me, the youngest one, obviously got kick out the group loh. boooooooooooooooo.


hrmph. go lah, go lah, i next time only go again xP December will be going up twice. blek! bully. me. 


HA! really am bored. have already pack my stuff, and then unpack them, then frustrated-go online. PHONE CALLS~ hahaha.. yamcha! yamcha! i was doubting who to call.. flipping the phone.. scrolling down all my contacts.. then just settled down on my cousinsss number =X ..


rawr. sorry. =p

cousin Keith's pet ^^

10:30pm ..  was suppose to go KTZ, SS2.. but it was SO CROWDED, so we just go to the mamak near the police station~ oh! together with Amy's friends too. was just chatting with Vonne the whole time~ not like we have any subject in common with the others.. xp me and her.. LOTS to catch up. hahaha. 

12:30am .. settle the bill and then back to Amy's house, grab her mahjoong set, head to Vonne's place to play xD hahaha why such trouble right? they can't come my house because my brothers will be sleeping, same goes to Amy. Only Vonne's house is empty. ngek. ngek. ngek. =D wanted to ''open bottle'' .. second thought... don't want lah. 

we played till both of her brother is back.. like.. 4am? >< really.. this is the 'earliest' record of our cousin-outing. hahaha. see whether in the future can we break this record or not. 

HEY! wait! I just realize something! hahaha.. during CNY we slept together at 7am before! hahaha. played the whole night, had breakfast, came home, slept all together in a room! remember?? hahaha

but that was CNY.. reasonable lah.. haha. it's different of normal day to do that. seriously siao. xD

well.. mahjoong, heart talks, girl chat, teh ice and nasi lemaks.. :)

xoxo

MiN ; Lexcee

ps : late night supper = increase of weight / MiN is in deep shit. 

Tell Me Something I Longed To Hear

and mean it.

Friday 12 November 2010

GOOD MORNING my beauties~! <3 

had a nightmare.. think i watched too many horror movie nowadays.. how would people dream of zombies? :(

Got a morning call by Mom~ wake up! wake up! we're having dim sum for breakfast! WAKE UP! uhh... okayy...

Just take the escalator from Highland's lobby and you'll see restaurant in front of you (: below Hollywood Casino.

blur Bryan.. blur photographer =x

because I'm in the blurry mood, no picture shall reveal that look! hahaha

back to hotel. sleep. HAHAHA. OMG sleep after meal??? ><

time to check out!

this drawing just caught my eyes (:

Hotel's lobby 

toddles~!

to Chin Swee Temple!

LOL! =D

feel so small?

<33

Marcus.......... run?

hugsss

(:

hey! look!

my friend!

take the lift to 7C floor (: 
you'll go to the temple down there

had lunch at a Vegetarian restaurant down stairs (: 
beautiful decorations

starters~

guess what...

they add sugar into the tea.

FREAKING sweet ==

lurve! vegetarian char siew =D

enjoyed the tour in Chin Swee Temple :) 

xoxo

MiN ; LexCee

ps : dontwanttotalkaboutyou!