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Thursday, 20 September 2010

Ohh~! It's the last day of September! Wake up~ wake up! 

Heard a last minute plan by Belle, mii dear coursemate that they're planning to go up Genting this Thursday~ ^^ well playful me joined them =D

No I didn't had a good night sleep the night before the outing.. Received a news and got kinda up set after that.. Sms till 3 in the morning and I just can't seem to fall asleep after that.. I was cool with the matter at first.. then mentioned about some word and it went wrong and all the girl-simply-thinking-facts burst my mind == haha. stupid de. 

Automatically sit up from bed at 6am.. start to get ready and all. Went to the train station at exact 7am. Took the LRT till KL  Central and then the Monorail to Titiwangsa. It was craazy~ I've never take the Monorail further than Bukit Bintang. It was freaky~. haha. Reached the stop at 7:50am waited for my course mates at the station it self till 8:30am, where Belle was so sweet, she walk out from the hostel to the station while it's raining to meet me first. 

For that half an hour I really felt kinda scary.. haha. KL have NEVER been my favorite place.. You see ah.. I left home at 7am, reach the station at 7:50am, meet up with the group at 8:30am. The plan was to take the 9am bus, but because it was raining so they took longer time. The worse thing is.. 1 of the girl were late. From traffic to the train. I really don't understand how can a person's punctuality can be so weak. Or even common sense. If you know you were to hit the traffic, then why didn't you plan your time earlier? It is raining, obviously, you have to come out even earlier right? 11 person waiting for 1 person, is really ridiculous. I did not show my anger, I was just confused by your actions. I really don't understand how can you make this stupid mistake. My fill my mind with others things, everyone look fine with her, so I don't want to cause a havoc about it. 


When Belle decided to stay back alone to wait for her.. I got even more pist, I don't know what should I do. I tell myself I've been waiting since 8am and now you want me to wait for you till 10:30am for the next bus? And we've already brought the ticket. rawr. No, I'm sorry. I can't. My patient does not go that far. Especially with you, I'm afraid I will slap you or say something bad when you arrive. So no way. I'm sorry I've been a little selfish, I should have stay back with Belle. I will do that for Belle, but not for you. And if I were to take the next bus with you, it will be odd number. 1 of us will have to sit with a stranger on both bus. Luckily you both reach Genting in 1 form. jeez. 

So i sticked to the 10am bus with the rest. 
It was full, like~ the seats are all taken. But there's still people coming on the bus, standing thru out the whole journey to Genting is so dangerous. Our 2 gentlemen - Dan & Thony, got the idea from Wern and decided to stood up and give their seats to the old uncles and aunties :) so sweeeeet~ <3 of you guys :)

Sat with Sun.. and the bus was licking water =='' hahaha
I didn't have a good night sleep, neither I can sleep during the bus journey. It was just.. too unsafe to sleep in that condition. LOL. hahaha. Started sms and listening to songs.. Sun was not feeling well, this morning she had minor fever.. luckily she ate panadol and have a rest :)

Sun, *idk her name =X* , Wern

Waited for Belle from the next bus, met up with Via &KB the sweeet couple and then went to Marry Brown for breakfast ^^ everyone was starving~~~ 

This picture is so funny xD
Belle : actually I think the bread is expired 
Rul : . . . 
hahahaha hilarious la Rul~

8 Pax here.. plus another 5 pax another side.. Thony was the only one who didn't join us in the OutDoor theme park. rawr. Unfair punnya. blekk~!

<3 

we have 2 couples with us today 

besides their partner the rest are my course mates.

different intakes, and different day of classes. 

but we are still close =D

Belle was very cute today xD

Yang was like *point* play that one!

and Belle is like, no play that one first *point* !!

hahahahaha

Slipped into 2 group.. this was the 1st thing we played ><

rawr. forgive my expression. 

I was freaking out xD

Vin

Yang & her BF Qiang

Via & KB

<3

Dan, Vin, Via, mii, Belle, Rul 

little girl just can't wait to have more fun ^^

^^V

queuing up for Cock-screw.

First seat? no way xD

Solero? Space Shutter? oh whatever, its scary. xD

siao ehh~ xD

To the dinosaur~!

Got in the boat, all 13 of us xD

sceneries 

I like this one :)

Belle & I :)

blaaa~ not very fun =D

jump. jump. jump =D

=D

Dan ah.. Dan?

reptile.. never a friend of mine. 

Belle 

never. xD

but they had fun ^^

peace.

I was feeling sick that time. Anything but reptile. xD

We had waffles together and all sort of games.. then I felt a little uneasy with my tummy.. dismiss myself from the group to meet up with Thony.. Went checking the tickets for cable car and bus :) After all the confirmation.. Thony & I lepaked around First World in door theme park and then we had late lunch at the food court above Speedy :) I've never thought we would have a heart-to-heart talk together. hahaha. hilarious lah weii. But I appreciate it :) really, it was nice <3 The lunch make me realize I was having gastric though == stupid betul. 


Sadly the cable car is under maintenance till November =( So we have no choice but to take the bus back.. From 6:20pm.. we push our bus ride till 7:50pm :) hardly come up to play.. give them more time ^^ 


Met up with Belle and Sun.. we chilled at StarBucks.. 

Our ''DaGeGe'' also is a fan of cars weii.. haha another interest we have together already~ LOL haha.. funny case. shockingly. xD

Sun~ ^^

12 pax on the bus ^^

Via & KB drove up.. and they left early :)

Tired, hungry, excitement ^^
dinner at a mamak near their hostel :)

Nearest : Nice, _ , Wern, Rul, Vin

Nearest : Belle, Sun, Dan, Thony... :)

OH! Belle and I brought something similiar together ^^
Friendship bracelet? Something like that :)

it was an awesome day~!

Maybe you would like to excuse my facial expression on most of the photos.. haha. I still have no idea how to smile or express myself with the braces on =S .. harharhar. 

Met Vin, and Qiang for the first time, and glad I met them ^^ they're so fun~ haha everyone was fun =D such a lovely group of friends <3 will never forget you guys :) promise! *hugs*

xoxo

Ee MiN ; alexis

An Option Please?

im more than that

Hey Humans~! 

Sorry about all the emotional post and stuffs xD 

life is hard isn't it? hahax.

Yeah~ school have been hard. All stated on the previous post.. Heard things and I don't know how exactly to over come it or face it.. rawr. 

''he is targeting you'' 

LOLS ''seriously?'' LAME. 

haha skip that? 

nahh. 

Monday 27 September 2010

Back to class.. had English today and some public speaking any free topic. ^^ I crapped about how I got my braces done.. haha fail~ xD 

After the usual class, Mr._ came and talk to us.. I got praised on certain things and I was really happy about it.. :) 

Tuesday 28 September 2010

tough tough tough. It was a tough day =S .. 

First of all, I didn't know we were having an extra class today at 12pm. Woke up late this morning and met up late with Via & KB at KL Plaza, now known as Fahrenheit 88. I want to meet up early to catch up with the works I missed when I was sick. This morning-meeting made me felt a little uneasy.. first is the homework we're panic-king, then the exam which is next week, and then some other rumors also.. see this is the 1st thing that up set me.

During class today, we had public speaking too :) My instructor was a little up set because half of us was absent for the extra class he had this morning. I have no idea why others classmate who did the public speaking today was up set too. All their stories are personal, sad, disappointment.. The atmosphere became more and more tense, one after another story. I can't take it anymore, I excuse myself to the washroom. Why is everyone mourning? What day is today?! I got up set too, feel like I can burst into tears anytime if I stay in the class. Decided to cheer the atmosphere. I went into the class and wait for my turn to speak. But == Sir didn't allow me to have it. He skipped my turn and started teaching on the text book. I was shock, disappointed and irritated. BLEK! haha. I was ready to tell me story, I want to do a little changes to the mood of the class. RAWR~! this is the 2nd thing that up set me.

Yesterday we were given a homework by Mr._ and I forgotten to fill in 1 last question. That question was pretty hard, was late to discuss it with my classmates so I handed in the class's work late. Later on, Mr._ came in and discussed the work with us. He pointed only to Via & I because, after the class we asked for his permission to leave earlier, because we will be having our language class at 7pm later. That time was already 6pm+, we both haven had our lunch, for me, I haven had any meal for the whole day. Sorta feel like dying already. But he didn't allow. And all the lectures came up forward. 3rd thing.

I felt offended. Indirectly. Got pretty sad after that. The lecture ended at 7:30pm. And I was freaking late to my K class already so I informed the language office that I will be absent again, and wish to change my class to once a week with a new teacher. Luckily they understood my situation and allowed me to change it :) will be starting the class all over again on the 27 OCT ^^ bumped into Thony after I settle my things at the office and later on the hostel group xD Very nice of them to let me join them for dinner, I was starving~~~~ xD so we went to Pavilion :)

It is my 1st time hanging out with them after class.. haha. sad and stupid right? After 3 months together and this is the FIRST time. jeez, totally fail in blending in. hahaha. Belle brought Subway for the 1st time!! woohooo~ haha introduced her to Tuna since it's Tuesday also.. haha. Glad she love it ^^ it's my favorite though =D the rest of us, Thony, Dan, Sun, Rul and I had dishes from the food court :) We walked around BB and then watch a performance by the street.. then headed to the monorail to go home :) it was a lovely night.. so caring ^^

I got to know that they were planning a Genting trip this Thursday and I was so excited to join them ^^ tonight I heard a lot of things from them too.. things that benefits me, things that warned me :) there is when all the emotional things start flowing in >< accumulate all the 3 things and I got all emotional~ =X 

Wednesday 29 September 2010

So because half of us missed the extra class yesterday so we gonna have it today instead ^^ From 12pm till 1:30pm. Had public speaking, I spoke about the camp to Pulau Kapas with OPClub during High School ^^ Jeez.. my past tense failed. hahaha. I was glad that my story or the way I express it didn't bored my classmates hahaha. Everyone had our turn.. luckily today's story is better than yesterday's haha. Or else I'll die of all this mourning. xD 

Had lunch with Sir at the coffee shop further down our centre.. Elle, Nice, Fern, Via, Sir & I ^^ chit chat with Sir and it was a funny lunch :) appreciate that. haha. Back to class and all the rest of my classmate have arrived :) Started class with the textbook and then public speaking again. Thony's group did it first, we called it the 1st group. hahaha. then my group, the 2nd one.. Sadly only 2 from my group get to do the public speaking because we are running out of time. I repeated my story all over again, wishing it will be better this time, and it is! =D Sir said it's good, but can be better :) OHYA! We have a new classmate today too ^^ gaaa.. I forgotten her name == Blaaaa. but she is pretty, woot, part time model of course pretty lah. stupid de. xD

Today Mr._ didn't come in =S .. he was out station. weee~ xD enough stress already. Wanna disappear straight after class. harhar. Took the Monorail with Fern today and I got the bus before she did. Felt a little sorry =( haaaaaaaaaa.. today was a relieve :) can study nicely already.. LOLS haha. 

I was just over stressed these few days :) 

Everything is fine now.. at least for now <3

xoxo

Ee MiN ; alexis

from <3 : so close, yet so far? 

I Stood Too High For Too Long

now I am allowed to fall 

so much deeper into the ground

Tuesday 28 September 2010

Ihadabadday. Iheardthings. Unwantedthings. Horriblethings. Aboutaperson. Aboutalife. Abouthowgirlsgetreallygetupsetbecauseoftheseactions. Idontnotknowwhototrust. Whotounderstand. Whototalkwith. NooneunderstandwhereamIstandingnow. Notthatnoonewascurious. Ididtoldsomeonewhathadhappen. Andhetotallystandupwithme. Supportedme. Encourageme. Gavemeadvice. Somany.. Somany. Toomany. Toomuchthingsatonce. NowthatIminvolveinitbecomesharder. Hardertofacewhatisgoingtocome. Hardertobeaware. Hardertodifferenciatewhatisgoodandbad. WhatIshoulddoandwhatIshouldnot. Dontgetbrainwashed. Anddontgetallintohisplans. Idontknow. Ireallydonotknowwhatisnext. Imstressout. Itsnotbecauseoftheexams. Itsnotbecauseoftheclasses. Everythingaccumulated. AndnowIcantstanditanymore. HowdoIburstit? HowshouldIhandleit? Itssopainfulonmychest. Itstooheavy. Itshardtobreathe. Tearsarebubbling. Imforcingitin. OrIshouldnt? 

Boy. Isowantyourattention. Ineedyourattention. Iwantyourcare. Iwantyoutolisten. AfterthatIrealize. Imnotyouranyone. HowIhopethatphraseendwithayet. Iwanttotellyouexactlywhathappened. HowIfeltashamed. HowIfeltreallybad. WhyamIsoemotional. Whathasgoneintome. Whatgotsowrongthatiscausingallthisemotionalrunningup. Howmanyisinvolve. Howmanyisavictim. Butboy. Cometothinkofit. Wearejustfriends. Imgoingovertheboder. IdontknowwhatamIdoingnowisrightorwrong. IdontknowwhatdoyouthinkImtryingtodo. Ihavenoideahowtotellyouthis. Ifeelsohelplessnow. Soempty. Tooemptythatisevenhardtocry. 

Ivestandthewholefeelingsincetheafternoon. Classbecamemoremourning. Topicsweresad. Storieswereworse. IwassoupsetthatIneedtoexcusemyselftothewashroom. Idrippedafewtears. AndIrealizeIneedtocheeruptheatmosphere. Iwanttomakeadifferenceintodaysclass. Idontwanteveryonetogohomeandgetallupsetwithclasstoday. Idecidedtomakeeveryonetoforgetwhattheyhadshared. Istanduptomydecision. ButIwasntgiventhechancetodoso. Sirtotallyskipmeoffmyturn. Idontwantmydeargirlstobeupset. Theydontdeservethis. Theyareallangels. Whyshouldhetreatthemlikethis? Ifeltawful. Reallyawful. Iamtheonethatshouldbegettingallthescoldingandyelling. Why?! Whenyouknowitsactuallyme. Itsmyfaultandyoudontwantoscoldme? Istoodout. Iconfrontedmyself. Butyoudontwanttoacceptit. Pleasescoldtherightperson! Althoughtheydidntmindwhatthehackyoudidyouscoldthem. Butyourwords,theirexpression,theirdissatisfactionisreallykillingme!    

AttheendallthatmatterwasyoU. Mymindwasrushinghotblood. Imdesperatetoseeyou. Iwantmyheadonyourshouldersandnotonmyhands. Iwantyoutowipemytearsaway. Iwantedyoutobenexttome. Ineededashelter. Butno. Ididnteventellyouwhathappened. IdidnthintyouthatIwasreallyupset. ThatIcancollapseanywhereanytimenow. YesIwasthatweak. Iwassohelpless. AndImnotoutofit. Yet. Boyithadjustbeen1week. AndIhavemissyoulikecrazy. ''important''howimpotantamItoyou? 

MiN ; alexis

ps : thankyou JWei. ily. 
status : miserable. stress. upset. confused. fallinginandoutoflove.
from heart : all i really want is yoU to be here. 

Sparks

will yoU catch me if i fall?

Yes, dear..

Something really amazing.

Hope we stay this way and move forward

Hope my mind don't mention about stupid things and get you all up set again

I'm sorry.. 

I've lost count on how many words I've said and hurt you so far..

We're always apologizing to each other..

I don't want this to happen anymore.

It's not like we did it in purpose or it is really urgent enough to apologize.

Please dear.. 

be more relax and comfortable among our selves kay?

I suck in this too

But we'll try :) 

<3

xoxo 

MiN ; alexis

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